Letter to my 18 year old self

 

Dear 18 year old me,

I hope you're beaming with joy and happiness.

If you smirk at this, that tells me you’re starting to question, what really makes you happy, right? Just like struggling to find something invisible in thin air, aren’t you searching corners of your brain, to catch hold of that one thing that fits in and makes you truly happy. You’re thinking, perhaps your happiness was a little too much for the world. Everybody around you advocates lives turn around after 18, but nobody told you how to deal with it when you feel the world has turned around on you. So here I am, giving you a short guide to navigating a few years.

From this moment, you're expected to act your age, not too young to be frolicking around but not old enough to be frolicking around, you get me? It's okay, take your time. Someday this will make perfect sense to you.

And one day, heartbroken, when you'll be crying for something that can't be healed. Think about a question, is love really that important a part of our lives? A person who constantly confides in you, trusts you, empowers you, loves you; why can't it be you yourself. Brutally, it’s really unfair of you to expect people to love you when you can’t love yourself. Your favorite Professor Dumbledore said, "Pity the ones living without love", the secret is out, he meant loving yourself first.

I know you hate spoilers but you hating on me for not giving a heads up would be worse. So, really soon, you'll not be afraid of trusting. While being heartbroken for quite a few times, but with each time, you would be more comfortable with priorities. You'll understand it's perfectly normal on someone's part to not be able to love you the way you want them to. You will learn to hold on and let go, without being heartless. Instead, believe me, after that you'll have a big heart, a big life but do not let anybody tell you that you weren't enough. Forgive yourself and people you love too. There’s light not just at the end of the tunnel, also wherever you ready to create it.

Live on promises. Remember, you only lose your dignity by not walking over your own words. Seize life, one day at a time.

Don’t believe in boundaries, there are no rules in crossing these lines. When it's time, you know it's time.

See you again in some time, a few more years down the line, when you're younger and ready to shine.

Love,
21 year old you