Do you have illusions too? | #NaPoWriMo2020 | Prompt 6

Prompt: Use sunlight, damage and barmecidal in a poem

Do you have illusions too?

When the sunlight shines it's gold

Don't you rethink all your love and worth 

Tell me, if that is an illusion or dearth?

I've loved, enough, and more than enough

Thinking this is how it ought to be

This is it, my dreams touch cloud nine here

My destiny awaits me to confine here

But you don't realise damage until it's done

The damage when being alive kills you more

Until it has ripped through your skin and skull

Until brain freeze has made your aura dull

It reminds me of the hollowness I bred

Now when the sunlight shines it's gold

For sometimes, love isn't enough, it's null

Turns out I was just another sad barmecidal